Surely someone will be there to sit with… If not, it’s okay, I convinced myself. Sitting in my usual pew, I thought, There’s still a few more minutes; maybe someone will show. When no one I knew walked in those doors, I subconsciously gave myself a little pep talk. Maybe church alone will be neat. Just me and the Lord. But as the music started to play, I felt alone. Christians aren’t supposed to feel alone. Why do I feel like this? I’m at church. I’ve grown up in church…
And you know how it is…once your mind starts, it doesn’t stop. Well, I guess I better get used to this. The rest of my friends are graduating this year- most of them in just a few months…Then I’ll really be alone. What if I don’t find a housemate? What if next semester my extroverted self does nothing but eat, sleep, and do homework? I can’t take a year and a half of that. I’ll go crazy.
I was still mumbling the words to a song as my mind was racing faster. I knew I had to put a stop to these thoughts before they consumed me. I prayed. I prayed that God would remind me of His friendship, His love, and His plan for me. I began to think about the promises in God’s word- that He will never leave me nor forsake me (Deuteronomy 31:6). That He is truly ALL I need.
Then, a tear fell down my cheek. I’m not even sure if it was a tear of joy or sadness. As I tried to wipe it away discreetly, I noticed what song I was mumbling the words to…
He knows my name
He knows my every thought,
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
I have a father,
He calls me his own
He’ll never leave me,
No matter where I go
This brought everything back into focus. I’m never alone. Christians can FEEL lonely, but they are NEVER truly alone.
Loneliness is a part of our human nature. Even Jesus in the flesh felt lonely at times. “Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani” My God, My God, why have you forsaken me? he said just before he died on the cross (Matt 27:46).
Sometimes we’re not as honest with God as Jesus was in that moment. Instead, we reach out to something or someone more comfortable- family, friends, pets, food, money, and even social media. Sure, these things can temporarily soothe our loneliness, but they can never take it away. “Loneliness is a homesickness for God.” Expecting someone other than God to cure our loneliness is unfair and unrealistic.
Instead of reaching out to someone the moment you feel alone—go to God first. Wait for Him to make himself known. Before you even send that text or make that call, take time to be with the Lord. I can guarantee he has nothing but truth and love to speak into your heart. You are never alone!